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Falling

12/26/09

I'm slowly falling....
....
....
deeper and deeper it gets. once clear and visible is not black and suffocating.
the shadows of bricks pull at my feet, weighing down faster and faster.
in the blink of an eye it's tomorrow, blinding me as if a dream.
blind to the love and light surrounding me
either by choice... or not... i push away.
keep my eyes open and breath but the falling never ends.

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